A Long Week Ahead

Hello my lovelies,

I've realised that my blog has become a place that I've use more for discussing life and such recently, more than its original purpose of reviewing films/television programmes. Although I still want to do some reviews I'm also liking having the space to write anything and everything which has resulted in a bit of a change of blog, but I hope you enjoy it none the less.

This week I'm writing about how I'm feeling about my sons operation this week. Even though I know he needs it, and it will make things better, it's still hard knowing my 2 month old baby is going to be cut into. I know he'll be in good hands and will be well looked after but I'm still scared and I know I'll be so emotional on the day when I have to see him get taken to theatre.

If you're wondering the reason for this op is due to a granuloma where his belly button should be. It took so long for anyone to actually decide what was wrong and what needed doing. As normal the leftover bit of umbilical cord left from his birth fell off in his second week of being here, but he never had a normal belly button, he always had a nasty looking bump where it should have been. We had it looked at by health visitors, midwives, doctors and nurses, but it wasn't until a consultant got a surgeon to check it over that we finally got an answer. My poor boy still has an open connection on the inside of his body that should have closed prior to birth. Luckily it doesn't have any nerve endings so it doesn't cause him pain and he's had it the whole time so it doesn't bother him, it's just horrible to see and have to put a clean bandage over multiple times a day so I'm glad he's getting it sorted.

Annoyingly he's already had this operation cancelled once so I'm hoping and praying that when we get to the hospital again this week, that it will take place as scheduled. We're due to get to the hospital on Wednesday for the big operation to take place on Thursday when my partner will be able to join us before our boy goes to theatre. I'm scared for him but I know he'll be well taken care of. I'm glad he doesn't know what's going to happen but it'll make me sad to see him connected to a drip Wednesday night in preparation for Thursday.

Well my lovelies, that's my rambles for my feelings about it today. It's Monday so two days to go, already started organising things to pack a hospital bag again. I think we stay in for up to a week, that part I'm not looking forward to but we'll see how it goes. I plan to blog again on Wednesday but we'll see how things go when we get there.


Until next time my lovelies,
Thanks for reading :) x